donation..

haha i went to donate blood yesterday. yea man. was quite scared actually.. but hmm. pain is transient. and i don think this kind of physical pain is anything now. not at this moment. hm. anyway it was fun. couldnt feel the needle at all cos of the ma zui thingy. all you can see is the blood flowing through. wanted to tell the nurse to take more. cos no point living le. haha. but my fren ask me don be stoopid. hm. i did a good deed:)

changed my blogskin. ya. din like the old one anymore. hmm..jus makes me feel worse. tdy's training wasn't exactly helpin actually. was reminded of many things. things i don want to face now. all those dreams and plans we had. dashed. but nvm. like i said. i wish you happiness. as long as you're happy. next year wushu competition. it wouldnt be the same anymore...

ok i shouldnt say more. or it'll happen again.

thanks to all that cared. i appreciate it. but not that i can help it. guess the fear. the pain. the phobia. it wouldnt be erased. things are different now. i'm alone. it's hard. i'm sorry. one qn i want so much to ask you. but i dont dare. cos i'm in no position anymore. no more. a nobody.
i miss you..and i still love you.